Connections8 February, 2012
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It came over me again today. That magnificent feeling of connectedness. Not oneness. No, not oneness because that implies indistinguishability and a loss of self and there was not that. With this everything was distinct, more fully its ideal but while also having a non-perceptible but very real, very present connection to everything else. It was like being tuned into not only the vastness of the cosmos but also of the vibrations in the spaces between particles.
It first came over me while being interviewed by two ninth grade girls for their research paper on transsexualism and hate crimes. As we talked I felt the right words just flowed from me and that we were making a powerful connection as human doings (beings are too passive). That sense of connection stayed with me, like a low frequency vibration.
The sensation amplified again fourth period. We were discussing the piece “Montgomery Boycott” about the bus boycott following Rosa Parks’ arrest when I found myself urged by an awareness of timing to explain to the students exactly what was at stake then and how, though the focus has shifted, human rights and dignity are very much at stake today. I described for them the vandalism done to my door, we talked about the bigotry and hatred, the murder of trans women and homosexuals, we drew comparisons between that and the racial bigotry leading up to Rosa Parks saying no. We drew connections to the Holocaust, Rwanda, and Kosovo. I could see, in my mind, all of history laid out and the silky strands twining events into a brilliant tapestry.
The sensation continued to grow as we conducted interviews of potential National Honor Society members. I could feel the essence of the interviewees, the strength of personality, or lack of. It seemed to almost hang ephemerally in the empty spaces between those of us in the room.
I still feel it. The connectedness and the awareness of the infinite space between objects on a universal scale. And beneath it all is that low frequency, a vibration that feels alive, like breath.